Dare to Dream

Today is a big milestone for me. I am 8 months in remission-I can't even believe it. Also, it was exactly one year ago on this day that I had my first chemo treatment. So much has happened in the last year-much of it a blur. I couldn't have made it through without my God, my family, and my friends. Not to mention the awesome team at OHSU.

Going through this life altering event has taught me something: just because you do doesn't necessarily mean it is easy to change. I naively thought that because I had cancer it would "scare" me into getting my health on track-eating more healthy, exercising, and losing weight. Well, sadly I was wrong. Maybe it's me, maybe it's just my adjusting back to "normal" life but I just can't seem to find the energy, mentally or physically to focus on getting my health on track. It doesn't help that I've been sick the last week-frown!!

I hate being sick. I mean, I know nobody likes to be sick-I just really hate it. I've been sick for long enough-I would like to know what it feels like to be "healthy". I even went to the store to get nice healthy food and to make a nice healthy green shake. Well, I made the green shake with what I thought was kale and sadly it wasn't. I have no idea what green leafy vegetable it was, but it had this really nasty kick to it. So down the disposal it went. Do I get any points for making it?

I ordered a book about making one change at a time. I haven't gotten it yet, and am looking forward to reading about this approach. I despise diets-always have. So, the idea of making one change a week over the course of 12 weeks sounds appealing. I'll write more about it in days to come.